My Observations of Life

Logic Vs Love Practicality Vs Fantasy At times Societal Norms Vs Passion Those are the conflicts that forever exist in all of our lives.  People who can find a middle ground are the millions of ordinary people we see living on this planet. People who get to the mind side are the uber successful, wealthy people - per societal norms. People who get to the heart side are the tormented souls. Such people,      D o not have a place in the society as they do not abide by the rules posed.      Are super individualistic and self-respecting that they cannot give up on themselves by not following their heart. What does this have to do with me now?  I'm not sure.  I was thinking about the things that one cannot have (one can never have) because of so many unwritten "rules" and it led me to this.  Maybe "Things that one can never have" is another blog post for another day. 

 I am running Every minute, every day, all the time! What am I running towards? I don’t know What am I looking for? I don’t know  However, the run is only constant. Even now when I’m sitting perfectly still, I’m running -        Towards what I need         Towards what my soul needs          Towards what my whole being wants           To feel better, to feel happy, to feel alive, to be human But what is that thing that will make me feel happy?         What is that thing that will fill my heart and nourish my soul and the human in me?  I don’t know. I think that’s why the run is constant.  Running towards an unknown destination is painful 😖  The mindless chase, constant search, the forever empty void I try pouring self-care, self-love, me time, loneliness, meditation and growth into the void to see if it will fill up and make me feel better. I try d...

It's so fascinating how much a person can change in a span of 7 years!  I'd say that I've experienced the growth of all 30 years in a span of 7 years plus that of those 7 years! That's why life's been so difficult lately. There's always one thing or the other that I have to learn and there is always one level up than where I am.  It is exhausting to keep learning, keep levelling up, keep growing when you are at an age that the world thinks is "old enough." However killing this process is, I won't trade it for anything else because it is as rejuvenating and liberating as it is killing. The rebirth is so worth it.  The word "liberating" is transitioning this post to a much practical and "general world-view"  😄  Re-reading journals or any piece of your writing from the past is enlightening and embarrassing at the same time! One such posts of mine is "Letting Go." The person who wrote that post (from where I am now) has ...