Vacations

Vacations!! Vacations are supposed to be relaxing, rejuvenating, recreating or rewinding you to the time of life you lost not so long in the plethora of life chores. If vacations happen to be just the opposite, you come back more tired and exhausted than before. I just had a vacation of the latter kind. Feeling more log-like than when I left, more tired than I was before and more irritated with the routine.

One reason why it turned out sour was that it was a trip that was meant for the unmarried/ married couple and not for family with children. We visited places over places every day with little time to rest. Starting early in the mornings and ending very late in the evenings, kids you know.

Now, I long for my kinda vacation. This my kinda vacation has different meanings based on the phase of life I am in. When I was unmarried, I would have just loved my recent vacation. When I got married, the recent vacation would have been ok with some amount of romance put in (this was more like a ladies and gents separate, college kinds vacation :/). When I have kids, now, I would like to wake up at my pace, relax, spend more time with family, talking and see places that can be seen at a leisure pace. So, after having a real family with kids and all (!!) vacation definition changes to more of relaxation and more family time than exploration and adventure.

Of Mediocrity

There are three kinds of people on this earth -

          Those who excel, those who don't care and then there is a whole lot of "mediocre".

The first two kinds of people do not have much to worry about when it comes to anything in life. The former has it easy and the latter does not even bother. The only category that is hard-hit in any and every aspect of life is the mediocre.

And this post is about
         Those - who have high aspirations but do not know where to start
         Those - who have great ideas but have no idea on how to turn them to reality
         Those - who cannot accept going down to the don't care category
         Those - who can do anything and everything to go up to the excel category but without a clue how
         Those - who, every time, struggle to get things their way
         Those - who are the mediocre.

Living a mediocre life is not easy, yet they form the the majority of the world's population. They can neither wholeheartedly follow people who excel nor give up. However, they make good followers. They have great ideas and can argue well. They weigh advantages and disadvantages of any situation but are scared to take the leap. Their aspirations are sky high but implementation capability is ground zero.

They are the people who have great belief in "Someday and One day". They seem to be the store house of energy and enthusiasm but deep inside, they live a life of misery. Unable to decide, unable to take the leap, unable to take risks, unable to think with a long term vision, unable to foresee situations, they accept whatever comes their way though that whatever is something they wanted never.

They sometimes do not have the knowledge required to take a leap of faith, they are never spotted from the crowd, oh yea, they are after all not excels. They look at excels with a jealousy admiration.

Yes, this is the weirdest post I have ever written in this blog. It lists out the characteristics of mediocre, uses the word mediocre a lot, it is very serious, it maintains a low key and not enthusiastic, it is not fun at all. It is because I decided to write about myself. My mediocre, mediocre self who does not know how to take a step towards changing my life to better, who is a slave of life's commitments, whose dreams and ideas are arrested inside a brain just because it is mediocre.

Yes, you can think of this post as a lament or the voice of a lazy woman or the reflections of an irresponsible human being. I will try hard to prove you wrong as I am a mediocre who cannot give up and go down but fail each time. 

Few Thoughts - actually a note of gratitude

I read a post on writing on the Litagram page on Facebook. It read something on these lines:

 "When it does not come roaring out, don't do it
   When it cannot manifest itself, don't do it:.

I am doing it today as it came roaring outside, it wants to manifest itself. I had the least idea of writing a blog post at 10:17 PM in the night of a working day, but the post wants to get written :)
Even when I write this line, I have the least idea of what am I going to write on this post or am I going to write something at all. It is so fascinating, this writing thing!

I have had some really crazy, hectic times at work. Those times made me realize several things in life. My strength, what  I am capable of, what is my actual weakness is vs. what I thought was my weakness. Most of these things came as a by product of working for KGS for a short time (no, I don't work there now). Which in turn means the realization came as a result of the interactions I had with people at KGS - a wonderful team of people there. If anybody gets a chance to work there, go for it without a second thought. They are the best lot I have ever worked with - real professionals :)

So, people who we meet in our lives shape up our life into something we might not even have imagined of! And that fascinates me a lot! Howsoever matured or capable or grown up you are, you still get influenced by people to a great extent. How one comes out of the influence is up  to the individual's ability. I am so glad that I realized the right things at the right time and all credits go to the team I mentioned above :)

People are fascinating! :)

I did not even think I will write a note of gratitude to my ex-colleagues and friends, but there it has written itself. Feels light, the post is over. Thank you for reading! :)